I’ve been screwed.
It started the day I was conceived.
When I was eleven, life crushed me into grotesque, mangled fragments. I glued the shards of myself into a mosaic fitting of a child. I learned one important thing from that experience.
Control.
Controlling your destiny keeps the vultures at bay. Control keeps my life from disintegrating. It keeps my life on the path to the woman I want to be.
Not who they say I am.
As time goes on, life hits and smashes and I take it. Every snide word, every crack in my heart, every self-righteous glance again and again.
Screw that.
I’m done.
It’s my turn to screw.
For the next hour, we play hide-and-seek. When I was a kid, I used to play this game with my parents. These days, I do it with both Jed’s and my sister, Christy’s, kids, but I’ve never had this much fun. That’s because Becca plays the game with more excited enthusiasm than the kids. She’s a totally different woman—throwing her head back and laughing, joking teasing, tickling.
It dawns on me that she didn’t have this growing up. I don’t know her whole story, but the bit I know tells me that smiling, laughing, and tickling didn’t happen often. So, now, she’s soaking it all up and giving it right back to these kids. It’s a thing of beauty.
This doesn’t take into account that, after a while, she pulls me into her fold. She grabs my hand and laughs without abandon when I do something goofy for the kids. Christ, she doesn’t stop smiling once, and it’s nothing but genuine, even when aimed at me.
It’s not just a thing of beauty. It’s beautifully sweet.
My girl—pure sweet.
Now, it’s Nick’s turn to seek, and he’s a speed counter, so as he fires off numbers faster than he eats jelly beans, Becca and I rush around to hide the other three. I pop Ashley in the shower and tell her to be quiet as Becca hides the other two somewhere in the room the girls share.
Nick gets to eighteen when I get out of the bathroom just as Becca emerges from the bedroom. My blood is pumping, and I’m grinning from ear to ear. Becca giggles as our eyes dart around, looking for a spot to hide.
“Ready or not, here I come!”
I spot a closet door, open it, and grab Becca’s hand to drag her in with me before closing the door, shrouding us in darkness.
Seconds tick by with our breaths coming out in heavy pants, the excitement still pumping through my body, when I realize that this closet is way too small for both of us. Her body is plastered against mine. Her face is at my chest, her hot breath seeping through my shirt, and it’s killing me. It’s not because I don’t want her exactly where she is, but because I don’t think she’s ready for what it’s doing to me. I can’t see a fucking thing, so every exhale and every movement is amplified in a way that’s making my dick hard.
“Thanks for the hiding spot,” she whispers against my shirt, making me grit my teeth.
“Don’t mention it,” I whisper back.
She smells so damn good, the scent of oranges and lavender permeating the air around us. I suck in a breath when she slowly, hesitantly snakes her arms around my waist.
“It’s more comfortable than having them squished between us.” She tenses her arms, accentuating her words.
“Mmhmm,” I mumble.
After a few seconds, she says quietly, “I forgot how good you smell.”
Fucking Christ.
Maybe I was wrong about her not being ready. My heart hammers, and my semi-hard cock jerks.
Tits sliding across my chest, she lifts up and gives my collarbone a touch of her tongue.
Fuck.
The feel of her tongue is soft, hot, wet. My chubby grows harder, and it takes everything in me not to drive my hands into her soft hair and take her mouth.
“Sweets, you sure you’re ready to go there?”
“I just wanted to see if you taste as good as I remember.” She glides back down.
The disappointment moving through me does nothing to stop my dick from throbbing. “Fuck, Becca. Don’t do that again if you’re not ready for that shit. There’s only so much a man can take.”
She’s silent.
I try to ease my dick down, but it’s pressed against her hard stomach, and I know she can feel it. There’s no way she could miss it, and the idea that she’s aware of my dick is not helping me find my calm. In fact, it’s the opposite. It’s been six years, but I know how good she tastes, how well she takes direction in bed, how fucking phenomenal her tight pussy sliding up and down my cock as I hold her hands looks and feels.
Without thinking, I tangle both my hands in her hair, which is longer than before but no less soft. When she sucks in air, my hips jut forward, my dick rubbing against her tight abs.
A moan catches in her throat, so I tilt her head up. I move my head downward at a snail’s pace, giving her time to push me away.
A half inch from her mouth, feeling her heavy breath against my lips, I ask, “You sure?”
As her answer, she closes the distance, and the instant her lips touch mine, fire sweeps through me, and I’m all over her. With my tongue devouring and my hands on her ass, I take everything, and she gives it. Her nails dig into my shoulders as she moans.
The door swings open, and the light is blinding, even behind closed lids.
“Found you!”
This is the
second book I read by Nicki Destasi .
She also wrote Worth It . She writes tales about characters that have inner
struggles. It is all about the journey
her characters experience. The process
that leads them to something greater, something more when they are ready to
find it, face it and live it!
“I hate being out of control…I” –Becca
“I have to prove to everyone, prove
to myself that just because my mom’s blood runs through my veins, I’m not her.”
-Becca
Becca has endured a lot. She had a sick momma and
saw way too much during her young years. She is focused on not repeating her
mother’s mistakes and it defines who she has become. She is very guarded. She
doesn’t want to let her walls down. She is driven to succeed and doesn’t want
anything or anyone getting in her way. She has been hurt. She is up for casual
flings no strings attached she has her needs……
She ends up
reconnecting with an old flame named Zach. He seems eager to rekindle things
where as Becca has other ideas…….
“Know what I want, sweets, and when I
want something, I make it happen.” - Zach
Zach may of
made mistakes or just not been ready. Can she see past his flaws and find a
future with him? Is he WORTH IT? Or will she just SCREW IT all together?
I think you
will enjoy Zach’s persistence just as much as I did……. You will also find
Beccca’s resilience uplifting. Her past was hard to digest. Poor Becca!
Srew It is an enjoyable second chance
romance. The characters were relatable and dealt with common issues relating to
maturity, confidence and trust that many can identify with. Nicki DeStasi
has a way with capturing emotions
in a story from passion, sadness, humor to angst!
I give Srew It! 5 STARS!!!!!
Screw It was the second book in The It Series but it can be read as a standalone. Although I highly recommend reading Worth It because it was an amazing read also. Nicki hit it out of the park with this story I didn't think anything she wrote you rate up with Worth It but boy was I proven wrong because this book was a solid 4.5 stars for me! This was Zach and Becca's story. I loved the chemistry and angst that these characters showed it was off the charts.
Becca had a rough life growing up she learned to take care of herself at a young age because her mother was never home and when she was she was passed out from drinking. When tragedy strikes and she looses her mother she will live with the vivid details of that night for years to come... so much that she has nightmares. She vows to herself to never fall in love because she will always be branded as something she isn't because of her mother's past indiscretions.
Someday, I'd like to find love and happiness, but all my life I've heard that I'm destined to be a useless whore like my mother. Hearing those condemning words and feeling those condescending eyes day after day, year after year, drive me and give me an unbendable focus to prove everyone wrong.-- Becca
When she does giveaway her heart to a man he breaks her so badly that her vow of never loving someone will come back full force. She will focus on her goals of opening her food truck and nothing else. But what happens when the man who shattered her heart comes back and realizes he made a huge mistake.. can she open her heart again or will she screw him over to show him what it feels like to get hurt?
Zach knows he messed up with Becca and that is his biggest regret in life, but back when there relationship was new he had insecurities too but now he wants to forever love, he is done being the play boy.. and when he runs in to Becca again he will realize what he lost...but will Becca open up to him again or will her demons from her past keep her locked down?
"With you. With us. I was young. I was stupid. I was feeling things I didn't get at the time. We had something good, but I didn't have my head screwed on right, and I fucked up. I'd like to see about unfucking that something, and maybe we can take it from there."-- Zach
When things start to go they way they both want it too, the past will make an appearance and it will destroy Becca again, but this time will she be able to lean on Zach for help or will she pull away again?
Go get these books ASAP! I love both of these stories and can't wait for so much more! I am a huge fan of Nicki now and plan on following her career as long as she keeps writing!
Anna lives every day the best she can while struggling against the demons that threaten to consume her and drag her back into the darkness of her very troubled past. The last thing she needs right now is a guy, especially one as sweet and sexy as Jed. When the attraction becomes too strong to resist, she gives into it. Even when she knows it’ll only end in disaster and leave her even more her scared and broken than she was before.
Jed wants to find the right woman and he’s drawn to Anna by carnal magnetism, but she also brings out an Alpha side of him that he’s never known. When his alpha rears its head, it triggers memories in Anna and her carefully crafted wall of protection begins to show cracks.
When fate and misunderstandings threaten the already delicate relationship, can they survive? When Anna’s demons threaten to be unearthed and Jed’s inner alpha only seem to make them worse, can they overcome?
Is it even worth it?
Warning: This book contains graphic violence, sex, and adult language.
Nicki DeStasi was raised in a small town in Massachusetts. She attended Fitchburg State College and studied Early Childhood Education. As a child, she enjoyed reading, but only recently began doing it again. She has always had an inventive imagination and finally decided to put those ideas on paper for others to enjoy. Worth It was Nicki’s first self-published book. A few personal facts: Sloth from The Goonies is her third cousin, she acted and stared in several plays throughout high school and college, and she can play four different instruments. Nicki’s philosophy is to appreciate the good things in life. If we didn’t make mistakes and have bad things happen then we wouldn’t know how truly wonderful the good things are. No matter how difficult life is sometimes, if we look to the people that love us, then we can get through them and on to the good stuff.
